Lady Gaga's Bad Romance Video

Its so amazing, how they have come up with this concept. This is it for Lady Gaga! Its her element. I so love her. : )

Does God Exist?

A University professor at a well known institution of higher learning challenged his students with this question. "Did God create everything that exists?"

A student bravely replied, "Yes he did!"

"God created everything?" The professor asked.

"Yes sir, he certainly did," the student replied.

The professor answered, "If God created everything; then God created evil. And, since evil exists, and according to the principle that our works define who we are, then we can assume God is evil."

The student became quiet and did not answer the professor's hypothetical definition. The professor, quite pleased with himself, boasted to the students that he had proven once more that the Christian faith was a myth.

Another student raised his hand and said, "May I ask you a question, professor?"

"Of course", replied the professor.

The student stood up and asked, "Professor, does cold exist?"

"What kind of question is this? Of course it exists. Have you never been cold?"

The other students snickered at the young man's question.

The young man replied, "In fact sir, cold does not exist. According to the laws of physics, what we consider cold is in reality the absence of heat. Every body or object is susceptible to study when it has or transmits energy, and heat is what makes a body or matter have or transmit energy. Absolute zero (-460 F) is the total absence of heat; and all matter becomes inert and incapable of reaction at that temperature. Cold does not exist. We have created this word to describe how we feel if we have no heat."

The student continued, "Professor, does darkness exist?"

The professor responded, "Of course it does."

The student replied, "Once again you are wrong sir, darkness does not exist either. Darkness is in reality the absence of light. Light we can study, but not darkness. In fact, we can use Newton's prism to break white light into many colors and study the various wavelengths of each color.

You cannot measure darkness. A simple ray of light can break into a world of darkness and illuminate it. How can you know how dark a certain space is? You measure the amount of light present. Isn't this correct? Darkness is a term used by man to describe what happens when there is no light present."

Finally the young man asked the professor, "Sir, does evil exist?"

Now uncertain, the professor responded, "Of course, as I have already said. We see it everyday. It is in the daily examples of man's Inhumanity to man. It is in the multitude of crime and violence everywhere in the world. These manifestations are nothing else but evil.

To this the student replied, "Evil does not exist, sir, or at least it does not exist unto itself. Evil is simply the absence of God. It is just like darkness and cold, a word that man has created to describe the absence of God. God did not create evil. Evil is the result of what happens when man does not have God's love present in his heart. It's like the cold that comes when there is no heat, or the darkness that comes when there is no light."

The professor sat down.

The young man's name - Albert Einstein ₇

Ondoy

In memory of super typhoon Ondoy who devastated our city last September 26 09. The traumatic experience that I have encountered and witnessed during the calamity has drained all the will inside me to write about it. I hope that I could just forget it and may my friends, neighbors (and the whole Philippines affected with the typhoon) easily get back with their lives again.

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New Watch

I purchased this Fossil watch last night from eBay. Got it really cheap, and It looks good on me. I finally learned how to bid and do transactions on eBay. I'm glad to win this time. I was very depressed last Monday after loosing from an auction for the first fossil watch Ive been following for over a week. Damn that I didn't get to have that item but now that I have this , I feel a lot better now. This is actually the first watch that I wore in the last 5 years. wow finally. I have something going on back in college preventing me to own a watch. I like it. My parents should never know any of this. If they found out that Ive been buying stuff from the internet without consulting them, they'd surely freak out.

I still don't know what's going on with my life thou. I'm still single, frustrated, lonely, tired, sleep deprived person that I am 2 years ago. Whats wrong with me? Ive seen and dated a lot of people in the last year and still nobody has ever ended up with me. (actually I don't mind. I never liked anyone of them anyway.) I haven't met him yet. What's taking you so long? : )

“Dinig Sana Kita” (“If I Knew What You Said”)

this seems to be a promising movie for a love story. its been a while since I watched something romantic and feel like i wanted to fall inlove again. Ive been feeling a bit lonely this past few days. how long will i stay single?

The Blue Pack

My marlboro lights now comes with a new blue pack. I can't exactly tell if it has any differences in regards with the taste with the regular lights but the new packaging looks good thou. So far I already inhaled 2 packs in just 3 days. Working in Eastwood, Im very much exposed to seeing people smoking, making it very much difficult to quit.

I only have until tomorrow to decide if I want to consider going back to my previous job. I admit, I do miss my last job, I worked for Sprint for over 2 years. The account wasnt easy but it was challenging and I enjoy playing the role of a customer service rep., in which I get to help a lot of people, it gives me a sense of fulfilment knowing that I still have a purpose in this world.

My new company is the exact opposite. Size, benifits, environment, task, management, staff, everything seems different from what I am accustomed. I find it really wierd. Work is too easy that I dont feel any fulfilment at all after completing it. Am I whining again? looking for things that's missing, I even doubt it if there's a perfect company who even exist specially in this country. let's face it, we can't have them all.. maybe I should just stop complaining and finish my contract then go back on a later date or should I back off now and just went missing after the first payday..

“It is in your moments of decision that your destiny is shaped.”
~ Anthony Robbins

special thanks to pro. heckler for providing the qoute.

September begins.

I bought my first Lacoste polo shirt today on ebay and picked the item up on a condo in makati this morning. Im loving ebay! so far all 3 transactions that i made within this year were all sucessful. I remember winning bids last january for that 2009 starbucks planner. Im very happy with the shirt I bought. I got one in black. Ive been dying to have this Lacoste polo's in the last 2 years, Ive seen most of my crushes wearing these and its so sexy. I know it will also look good on me. I just knew it. (it gotta be, this is one of the most expensive shirt that I ever bought in my entire life.) I cant fucking wait to show it off to my friends. :)

Ever wonder why I afforded a Lacoste shirt when I just started my new job last week and I havent even been paid yet? I finally recieved my final pay from my previous company. I went there yesterday and visited the accounting office and ask if I have my check out already. It was. I cashed it immediately. I went to a mall planning to get myself some new shoes but I didnt find one that I actually like. I dont know If I still want that fossil watch now that I have my money. I so wanted to own an Ipod Touch but with itunes on my pc acting crazy it might not be a good idea to get one until its fix. or maybe I should invest my money on a business or put it away on a bank.. I have a lot of things to think about and to think that that was all of it, I was wrong. ten minutes after I got home I went to bed to take a nap and then I got a text message coming from my former sup back in TP. My old company wants me back. Its so ironic when I already said my goodbye's and farewell on my recent visit. They were offering me to come back to work with the same account. Apparently they might have realized that I was a huge lost to the company after I left. I thought he was joking at first but he was not. I can go back to my old job and start all over again. that means leaving my current company which I enjoy working, theyre asking me to choose and leave my current job after establishing friendship and bond with the people I work with. Just after I found friends that I know that I will never see anywhere. The temptation here is the salary offer. It will be an advantage for me if I go back ill be earning more but it means leaving them behind. Theyre wonderful. I never met anyone like them before who actually appreciated and liked me. I was given until saturday to decide. I have to think about it.

d'sound - green eyes

Green eyes
Here we are, as close as we can get
We’re in too deep, it cannot be forgotten
It is more than curiousity

Your embrace did amaze me from the very start
Get closer til I hear the rhythm of your heart
You make a hard attack

No matter where, you get always in my hair
And in your lap lies paradise
It’s not a matter of resisting
It’s just a matter of existing with green eyes

This lust is a hell-machine
Devils voice and gasoline
And I want you more than anything
This lust is a hell-machine

Get upset when I’m breathing in your feromones
This desire is a curse and I want it more and more
It’s all I’m living for

When I dream it’s of you
About your lips and hands
When I wake it’s a punishement I know that I deserve
It’s tearing on my nerves

No matter where, you get always in my hair
And in your lap lies paradise
It’s not a matter of resisting
It’s just a matter of existing with green eyes

This lust is a hell-machine
Devils voice and gasoline
And I want you more than anything
This lust is a hell-machine

- i really love dsound's music everysince and when this song came out I was listening to it like crazy. I used to browsed this video everyday back in college after my class. The lyrics is so sexy. Mostly about a women describing her lust with the person whom she love.

hope you like it too..

Cigarette Break

Wow. I wasnt been able to post anything within the week. I was busy with my new job and was barely getting enough sleep so I couldnt really get my ass infront of my computer to write anything. With only 5hrs of sleep for 4 straight days, It really sucks specially when your a smoker and your lungs really need that rest. There goes my lifespan. Id be lucky enough to live longer than Michael Jackson did. Anyway, I love my new job! I like the company and I think that the people that im gonna be working with are really awesome, not to mention our hot trainer manager. I cant even look at him for more than 2mins without blushing. He's so cute that I just want to jump right at him.
Last week I was contemplating on closing this blog or changing its format, title, name whatever after recieving a rude comment from someone that I dont even know. The comment was not about my blog but It was a private message that I did not appreciate, I immediately deleted it after I read it, which I regretted in the end since I forgot to get the person's . But anyway I realized that its not worth my time. I like to blog. I wont stop just because somebody from hell dont like me. I know I dont have that much visitors and readers and Im fine with it. Its an accepted fact that I was not born with a gift in writing but that wont stop me from doing what I love. This blog serves as my online journal, ten years from now Id love to go back and visit this page and reminisce about all the thoughts and topics that Ive posted here. So thats it.
I'll go to bed now and take my well-deserve rest. Im back on track.

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I just visited cbs.com and was suprise to see the newly posted castaways for Survivor Samoa airing on September 18, Friday (Philippine time). I cant wait. bring it on!

My Answer

pls play > >

My Answer by Seamo (Naruto Shippuuden 10th ending theme.)

What a beautiful song. I downloaded this by accident on Limewire while I was searching for popular anime theme songs to put on my ipod. But Im glad I did. I really love it! You cant really tell if its a happy or a sad song but it reminds me a lot of my friends. My past. The people that I shared experiences with. Im halfway from my past and my future. My new office tomorrow and the previous company in which I no longer belong, along with the friends and people that I cared. Its sad to leave people behind and also a bit scary to start all over again. But the challenge of a adventures and new things to explore is much more exciting. This song will serve as my clousure from all the memories in tp, as one chapter of my life ends and another one begins.

Weekends!

The usual Sunday I guess, I woke up 8am, eat breakfast. checked the messages on my phone, I was hoping to see one from my bestfriend but there was none. We had a small argument last night. He went to a birthday party without me. He didnt even bother to call and ask if I wanted to go with him. It was too late when I found out that he was there, he was already half-drunk and I was left behind alone to sleep the night off. We always used to go out together. I guess he just wanted to have sometime without me with his other friends. I might have said things to him that I no longer recall, I was mad.

I went to church with my sister and have my haircut done in the afternoon in preparation for my new job this week. I need to look good. : )

The cute receptionist from my new office called the other day informing me that my first day of work has been moved to Tuesday because of the holiday on Monday. It means that I will have an extra dayoff before my job actually starts, which is a little disapointing, i have already set my mind to work on monday and Im so dead bored staying at home, I really need to start earning money.

I swear, Ive watched this video over a hundred times now, and I just cant have enough of it!

ilove it!!! cute. grrrr :P
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They did it again.

She did it again!!

I downloaded the Glastonbury Festival from BBC last night and caught Lady Gaga performing for the finale act. And I could agree that its one of the best perfomances that Ive seen so far. It was just so electric, her energy is very contagious. She sang all my favorite song from her album (boys,boys,boys & Pokerface). All her outfits were just so cool, there was that bra who emits sparks and the bubble gown. It really me made feel so bad that I didnt get to watch her concert here. anyways its a must see act if you love lady gaga.

..and Lily Allen was also there, she was drinking alcohol and smoking while performing. I dont know how old she is but I bet she's still young thou no longer a minor. But I can see kids on the audience watching her smoke and get drunk on stage. I find her cute and I also like her music but I dont think that she's going be a good role model for young girls.

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Way to go Dj Mojo. : P

Its not fair that they removed his billboard ad just because there's Gay word in it?! wtf? anyway he's still extremely cute. I cant believe that he isnt straight, I just found it out yesterday that his actually gay. I wish Ive known it earlier so I could have visited his radio station which is near my old office. I dont get a chance to listen to their show in the morning because of my job I always read all the transcript of their forbidden question. Anyway hope my crush get more ad offers and maybe much more bigger billboards. I just love his smile. Cute. ( .. and how much does GlutaMax cost? maybe I should buy a pack to support him. )

pls sign the petittion to bring back Mojo Jojo's billboard..

http://www.petitiononline.com/mojojojo/petition.html

Saturday 8:24am

I'm your biggest fan

I'll follow you until you love me
Papa-paparazzi

I still feel bad that I didnt catch Lady Gaga's concert here last August 11. What can I do, the same night of her concert was also my final interview from my new job. I could watch the concert but loose my chance of getting the job. But anyway I guess that's it. I just wish that she goes back again soon. Anyway my love life is completely below zero right now. Kinda depressing, my bestfriend used to always tell me that love just usually come along when you least expected it. Question is when? will I be prepared by that time? am I gonna be ready? Im not much into suprises. Its mid-August already, September is next. im excited for Survivor Samoa.

Finally a whole new set of castaways. Hoping that its gonna be more fun this season. Its awesome to believe that this is survivor's 19th season. wow. they have been airing on television for almost 10 years. I hope they keep on over to the next 20 years I cant go on with my life without Survivor.

Well, I cant believe how fast this year have been. It was just yesterday when we were drunk drinking with my highschool friends on a bar for Valentives day, or the Outing in Antipolo last summer. I resigned from my job stayed home for more than a month. Michael Jackson gone. Cory Aquino. There's just a lot of things going on and its very fast. Until today I havent been succesful on quiting cigarettes.. should I just stop trying and go with my habit or convince myself to stop which is what ive been doing for about a year now. .

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My new Job! Im an Ad editor. I just finished updating my new occupation on friendster, finally im no longer a callcenter agent/customer service. Goodbye AHT, CSAT, Auxes, avaya and all irate customers! Im moving on.. : P

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Oh by the way did I mentioned that Jeff Canoy from Abs-cbs is HOT. I was watching him last night from Tv Patrol when he suddenly got me while he's telling the news about an electricity blackout in Sta. Mesa. I was just so amazed on how he delivered his news. It was very sexy. I could feel his adrenaline and excitement as I watched him speak. I was so infatuated that I suddenly found myslef typing his name on google searching for photos and I actually find this one. I followed his blog before The Miseducated but he closed it recently and reinvented a new one. You could really tell that he's very inteligent and talented. Imagine being able to speak fluent tagalog when he actually grew up in US. This guy is just so amazing. Maybe I could meet him someday and get an autograph. : )

keep it coming Goggle! more artwork please!!

WTF! Mrs. President

This fucking bitch dont deserve a single space on my blog or even in my life. But I just cant ignore the shocking moral that this person have. SHe is so fucking disgusting and I hope she just go away after 2010.

And why am I so furious?


the fact that she can digest dining into expensive restaurant in Manhattan NY. Enjoying a fine Steak and Wine worth a million peso ($20,000 to be exact) in just a single evening. while millions of filipinos back in the country are literally starving to death is so fucking hilarious and insulting. And where all this money came from?? OFCOURSE from tax payers like me. I pay my income tax twice a month. I DONT PAY MY TAXES so YOU could (along with your hordes of fugly government officials and security guards) dine in Lecirque YOU FUCKING BIATCH!!!! I hope you enjoyed that meal, im quite disappointed you didnt choke to death.

Im not upset because you ate your diner. Your the President after all but spending nearly a million so you could fillup your filthy stomach for the night is just so infuriating. Your a goverment official motherfucker! You know why I never buy coffees at Starbucks. Not because I cant afford it, but due to the fact that I cant imagine seeing myself enjoying a P160 worth cup of coffee when I can see homeless people and children starving on the streets. So its not a matter of having the money and being able to pay for it. Id rather enjoy seeing poor people eating dinner with their families instead of myself enjoying a slice of a $100 steak. I bet you never missed a single meal in your life mrs. president but I did. I know how it feels like to hear your Mother asking you to go to bed early and sleep because their wont be anything on our plates for dinner tonight. DO you have any idea how painful it is to see your younger siblings hungry? NO you have not. Because you DONT know what it feels likes t0 be poor. And still you can digest all that.

bon appétit,

Post Update

Ive been busy with my bestfriend with our new found hobby: job hunting. It was just so crazy and unbelievable but the chance to get to do it with my bestfriend is fun. He would always crack jokes about us and make friends with almost everyone. It was a big adventure for us. We went to Eastwood Libis last tuesday and searched for a company that will hire us. No words can explain how grateful i am to have him as my bestfriend. Bes dont give up you'l find the right job for you. Your a very talented awesome person you'l make it!! : )

I have my physical exam this morning (yes. I think I finally got myself a new job). Hopefully It turns out normal so I could start asap. It was my first time to go naked infront of a doctor. And I really have it to see my own blood being extracted infront of me. I was very nervous at first but turned out to be ok. Silly me, it wasnt even painful at all. I just have little difficulty bringing out one of the samples. I just couldnt imagine myself.. well ill just forget it and think that it never happened.

I have my nano restored today since It got corrupted the other day unable to play any music. I had a backup of all my songs but what's sad was the photos that was saved inside it. My Pc crashed months ago and all pictures where deleted I was able to saved it on my Ipod but now its gone since I just reformatted it. Those photos are very special to me. Pictures of my friends taken at work in Teleperformance friends that I might not see again since I have no idea where they are now. Anyway Im just glad that my Ipod is now fix and I can tear my eardrums out again. I havent sync any songs yet my itunes is acting retarded like its ownder. Lately Ive been going crazy over Lady Gaga's music video. So I decided to collect them all and save on my ipod. She's new video Paparazzi is just way so f***ing cool!!

Id stayed up till midnight hoping for the dark gloomy clouds to go away so I could witness the ancitpated Perseids meteor shower. Well my wish did not happen instead what I got was a weird 20minute blackout and a midnight rain, crushing my dream of seeing the romantic sights of meteor showers that evening. I so loved google's artwork for the meteor shower so I decided to upload it here. Beginning today Im gonna be collecting all google arts. : )

VICTORINA: We Condemn Willie's Hubris!

http://donavictorina.blogspot.com

VICTORINA: We Condemn Willie's Hubris!

ABS-CBN is no longer the biggest station in the Philippines. It is the biggest Philippine TV station in the world and what is shown on ABS-CBN is a reflection of who we are as a nation.

It is an on-going tragedy that what we find on Wowowee doesn't show what is best about our country and our people. It regularly shows uncouth behaviour, it shows men and women of all ages gyrating their pelvises and almost grinding crotches, it shows people trading sob stories for money, it shows games where greed for money and the willingness to gamble --not skill or knowledge -- reigns, and host of other things.

Next time we raise a fist of indignation over remarks made by people like Chip Tsao, Terry Hatcher, or whoever else; let us remember Wowowee and ask ourselves if this show adds to or takes away from our negative image as a country.

By Paul Farol

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Before I start my comment about Willie's show I would just like to emphasize that Im not a fan of Eat Bulaga, Wowowee or any noontime show but my parents love Wowowee, specially my Dad who is a hardworking tricycle driver. He would come home for lunch after a day long of pamamasada and will watch Wowowee with my Mom together. I personally hate the show. Not because its baduy, korni, pangmasa or anything. (but Willie's joke isnt even funny in the first place.) Since the show started and my parents getting hooked on it I know there's something wrong with it as what they do with their contestant. They make fun of people show fake empathy by giving away cash coming from their sponsors and enticing the people with their prices (knowing the fact that they are cheating their contestants.) And when Ultra tradegy happened which took the lives of hundred poor filipinos, I was just so enrage and was hoping that the aweful show be cancelled right away. Willie has crossed the line this time with his arrogant comment with Mrs. Cory Aquino's funeral. He should have thought and used his brain first before uttering words in public. He needs to go. Go away Willie. Buy yourself an island and stay there for good.

thank you VICTORINA!

The August Rain

Its been raining all week, and its friday tomorrow already. Life without anything much to do is a little boring. Im lucky to have friends around me whom I enjoys hanging around. I was in a mall yesterday with my bestfriend shopping for slippers. After Mall we went to this nearby bar then drank beer together while watching the heavy rain outside. It maybe raining cats and dogs but life must go on.
I know something's wrong with my life but I believe that everything happens for a reason, wether for me to learn the hardest lesson or just to stay calm and learn away out from this situation. As they say when it rains its pours. Im looking forward for a sunny September. A day when I can smell the cool hot air and the sun's heat. I appreciate the scene in the rain specially the crowd in a busy streets. The wet street after a rain fall which bring back memories from the past.

Thank you Cory..

Thank you.

Sadness

Its been a month since my resignation from my job. Alot of things happened that I just couldnt explain why. Four failed final job interviews and Im broke. Im almost there and then suddenly I didnt make it. On my previous post I talked about failures and why I shouldnt be afraid of it. This is anticipated. I thought I was ready for self disappointment but I was wrong. Nothing could have prepared me for this I should just have avoided this and eat the crap of my former job. I just dont know why this is happening to me. For a moment I now know how it feels like to be Sad. Scared. Cold and Alone. I lost friends, I dont know where to go or what to do with a low self esteem. Still I keep on reminding myself to be optimistic. Too much sadness, too much failure. I cant wait for the day that this is over. That I will be smiling again not worried about my future and I can tell myself I have survived this. Theres gotta be more to life than this.

Scared?

This is what's been going on inside my head for the last couple of days. After loosing my job, I honestly dont know where to pick myself up and start over. What if I failed again? Its painful. Specially when youve committed a lot in a single year. There are nights that Id woke up with thoughts asking myself where I went wrong. All these guilt, incompetence, hatred and self blaming wouldnt go away nor let me sleep. My mistake are haunting me and I want to punish myself, I wanna go away. Give up and end it as if I never existed at all. I know Ive caused pain for my parents I couldnt look them at the eye. I could tell theyre disappointed. Im a good for nothing person. worthless. Im a failure.


But wait..


oh yes i did fail.. but, does everything happens for a reason? We are all meant for something. Have I forgotten my happy thoughts? I understand how bad it could feel sometimes when everything is at its worst but that shouldnt stop me for starting a new life. Why not? When you lose everything all there is left is to move on. Accept it. Suck it up and go on. Life is great. Living is good! Ill live my life, make mistake and learn from it. I can get thru with all these, Ill prove it. So what. Im still young I have all the time in the world and Im gonna live my life no matter what!!

Cheers for a new start!!


suckass!!!

Lady Gaga

SHE'S HERE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Tambay Daze

After a night of drinking Redhorse with my friends last Sunday.

Ive been friends with these people since Highschool. Ivan the guy next to me, ive known him since 2nd grade he's almost like a brother. The one in the middle is my bestfriend whom im not in good terms as of thi moment but we still manage to drink together, id give him some credit for that he became my bestfriend for a reason. 2nd to the last was the promil kid on our class he's reviewing to pass the bar. goodluck buddy! and the guy in yellow on the last was Paolo, I dont like him much back in highschool but we became good friends and is still hanging out with together till now. I really love these guys.

Midnight Train

some thoughts:

Its eight days after I resigned from work last June 29 09, sad at my first couple of days that I no longer have to go to work. If youve been doing something so constant for the last 2 years Its going to be a little difficult to cope with the sudden change specially on the hours that I used to sleep and wake. Ive been enjoying my stay at my house, no job Im online all day browsing websites and searching interesting videos on youtube to entertain me. I get to hang around with my Mom a lot more thou I know that she'd much prefer me working so I could add to my family's income. Ok. My resignation from my previous employer wont go to waste. I have learned my lessons and hope that I wont commit those mistake anymore. ok so much for this issue.

last night:

I had nothing much to last Wendnesday so I decided to contact a long lost friend from in college who live in Makati. I told him I was bored and asked if we could hangout together for a quick chat to catch up with each others lives. We agreed to meet at 8pm after dinner. Coming from San Mateo Rizal the ride was like more than an hour I took the MRT since I have this P100 stored value card that my Dad gave me which I dont get to use very often. I meet up with my friend around 9pm boy I was late but was glad that he needed to do some erands first while waiting for me and it was ok. We went to a Ministop store near his place were I bought some snack and a can of Redhorse beer to drink. We chatted for like 2 hrs just reminiscing the days after our last meeting some 3-4 years ago. It was nearly 11 when we parted and I took a jeep back to MRT Magellanes station were I waited for 20 minutes for the next train. I still dont feel like going home to I decided to call another friend who's shift is about to end in an hour. He agreed to meet me after work and I went to my office building in Edsa Central were I watched TV while I wait for him. After an hour my friend came to pick me up with his car we drove somewhere in pasig. It went fine and I went home around 5am.


.. and Here comes my midnight train topic:

So last night I was riding the train going to shaw blvd. And it felt like a dream. Way back in college I remember writing a short novel about this guy who got stuck on a train station at midnight alone then ran into this girl blah blah ( I never got to finish the story and I only remembered about it last night, ) the train ride was fantastic. It was half empty and was quitely running up in Edsa. Outside me was the view of dark streets, tall buildings from Ayala, buses and pedestrians.. and then it hit me. Its a big change, the train will now operate till midnight. Its a new era beginning. The City is changing. And its no longer like what it was 2-3 years ago. I wonder what its gonna be like for Manila in the future. More night life for us filipinos. Easier access to places that we want to hang out. Its exciting.

Private Message Part 1

Trouble with Wife

GuyGuy: I am so fucking dead, dude.

Bilbo22: What's up?

GuyGuy: Ok, this is gonna take some explanation.

Bilbo22: Go for it.

GuyGuy: Alright. My wife goes crazy when I cum in her. She really likes the feeling of liquid shooting into her or something, cause she's absolutely nuts about it. It's like a fucking fetish.

GuyGuy: Anyway, Last week she went totally overboard with this. We were having sex, and everything was going great, but when I said I was about to cum she grabbed me by the shaft, forcefully yanked me out of her, got this fucking jar from the drawer in the nightstand, and collected my fucking semen in it.

Bilbo22: What the fuck?

GuyGuy: Yeah. Weird ass shit.

Bilbo22: No, I mean the fact you're telling me this shit. I don't want to hear this.

GuyGuy: It's important dude, hear me out.

Bilbo22: Fine, Fine.

GuyGuy: Anyway, I was asking what the fuck she was up to and she tells me she wants to save up my jism so she can take it all at once. So she sticks the jar in the fridge and tells me we can't have any more sex until I fill the thing entirely.

GuyGuy: And long story short, I just don't got that much juice in me, so after a week of trying to jack it until I could fill it, my penis felt like it was gonna burst. So I decided to cheat, and topped it off with some of this dove soap she has, cause it looks a lot like semen.

Bilbo22: Oh dear god, I know where this is going.

GuyGuy: So I give her the filled jar all indignant like cause she made me do this, and she promised me lots of kinky sex for it.

GuyGuy: Then she pulls a fucking turkey baster out of her dresser, sucks up the contents of the jar, sticks the baster in her pussy, and lets it rip.

GuyGuy: As it turns out, Soap apparently burns like a motherfucker when you put it in a woman's pussy.

Bilbo22: Oh shit man. When the fuck was this?

GuyGuy: Like, ten minutes ago.

Bilbo22: Then what the fuck are you doing on AIM!?

GuyGuy: Are you kidding? She's been in the bathroom for the past ten minutes screaming like a fucking banshee.

GuyGuy: I needed leverage. If she murders me now, I've got a witness who can testify against her.

GuyGuy: Oh shit, she's coming out now. If you don't hear from me in a few days, call the cops!

Bilbo22: I'll be sure to check under the porch for your body.

In Memory of Mr. Jackson..

"Gone Too Soon"
by Michael Jackson

Like A Comet Blazing
'Cross The Evening Sky
Gone Too Soon

Like A Rainbow
Fading In The Twinkling Of An Eye
Gone Too Soon

Shiny And SparklyAnd Splendidly Bright
Here One Day
Gone One Night
Like The Loss Of Sunlight
On A Cloudy Afternoon

Gone Too Soon

Like A Castle Built Upon

A Sandy Beach
Gone Too Soon
Like A Perfect Flower

That Is Just Beyond Your Reach
Gone Too Soon

Born To Amuse, To Inspire, To Delight

Here One Day
Gone One Night
Like A Sunset Dying With The Rising Of The Moon

Gone Too Soon

Gone Too Soon

Random Thoughts in The Rain.

Imagine waking up 1am pass midnight to go to work. It was raining, wind was cold and I was lonely walking into the dark wet sidewalk. Holding an umbrella and a stick of Marlboro lights on my other hand. My only companion that night. I have so many memories in the rain. Things that haunts my thoughts until tonight.


I have always been a loner back in college. As I slowly reminsce, I go to school by myself and went home alone. I was kinda enjoying it anyway. I go anywhere I want. See places and never have to ask permission or wait for anyone. I have my own hobbies, likes, tastes and dislike. And I hated my classmates back then. And never really bonded with them until 4th year. But one of my most memorable scene in my life happened exactly 4yrs ago from today. It was the day that I met him. The incident that have changed everything about me since that day.
It was somewhere late in June. The semester has just started when I bumped into one freshman on a corridor while hurrying to my next class. I dont remember his face back then. All I remember was a young, cute brown eyed boy, carrying books with a pack of Marlboro on top. I never was not yet learning to smoke that time but the red pack of Marlboro Red on his hands has somehow suprised me. "What was this guy thinking? exploiting his lungs with this pack of tabacco. do he really thinks it's cool?" I thought.
Days passed and It became know to me that he's class was occupying the room beside our Steno Class. I would sometimes caught him smoking alone outside in the corridor while waiting for thier professor. Day after day I noticed him more till I found myself looking for him. And there he was. He never really noticed me then. I dont know if he was just so busy acting cool. But there are times that I would bump him intentionally for him to realize my existence but all of those were ignored. Well,. until another 4 months later that we were introduced to each other and got each other's name.


that chapter has already ended a long time ago. I cant say I have totally moved on since I still havent changed my number or deleted my friendster account hoping to hear another word from him. Its over ill always keep reminding myself but someone these bittersweet memories I could just not let go. Because these are the things that made me who I am today. For those decisions that I made. For all the experiences I gained. I may never go back. It's a known fact but maybe someday, something better will follow.

Its Coming..

We waited patiently for you Harry..


Its here next month and I definitely cant wait. The 6th HP movie. The chapter that reveals Voldemort's past. Dumbledore's death and a promise of a much darker story.

Paris and Doug Reinhardt Split.

These guys has been dating for 6 months and I had been following their affair religiously to see if its gonna end up with another Paris Hilton home video. Oh Im so like dying to see Doug's body naked banging Paris. hahah. Well it quite ended early and I was suprise. This is the first time that Paris had dated someone who I actually find attractive. When I first saw their photo together I was like, how dare you Paris! They look hot together. Alledgely Paris caught Doug flirting with another woman on a party they attended in Los Angeles. Well that ends for Doug. But who cares if he's no longer around Paris's arms. I know id be seeing him less from paparazzi photos but anyway im a little bit disappointed, no amateur paris & doug porn for me.

Paris and Doug making out. I so fucking envy you bitch.

heheh. OMG! they're very hot! look at Doug's body.

I could almost imagine him naked on top of my bed..

Another Nightout with Bes.

(Riverpark Marikina City)

I went out with my bestfriend again last night. It started when we planned to attend a mass together that evening. Were suppose to catch the 7pm mass, I arrived at the church at 7:30 he wasnt there yet. He was late as always. My bestfriend have not arrived earlier that me ever in each of our meeting eversince we started our friendship 7 years ago. I was very furious when he arrived 2 hrs later when he showed up with this smile forgive-me-please-since-im-your-bestfriend look. I was very disapointed that we were not able to catch the mass together. Right after our short conversation for his excuses we decided to get a drink somewhere in RiverPark, our usual hangout. We entered a different bar this time. It was the tallest bar in the place and the view was great but the ambience isnt. There was a band playing and the bar was half empty. There wasnt any single cute guys around to ogle. Which was my second disapointment that night. We saw my cousin by the way and he joined us for a quick drink and left with his boyfriend. We shared 8 bottles of 330ml red horse beer that night. We went to RiverBanks after and grab a quick meal on a fastfood chain. It was 1am, we dont feel like going home yet after eating so we decided to went in this videoke place on a 24 store. Were my bestfriend sang his heart out with all his favorite songs. I fell asleep for a while and when he woked me up it was already 3am. He just finished all 16 songs in a marathon. I was sorry that I fell asleep. But he doesnt seem to mind. He knows that I always has this huge tendency to fall asleep after a drink. We sat there for a moment and bought a mineral water for him to drink. We smoked and chatted till 4am before we decided to leave. It was a blast. I couldnt imagine being with someone doing this rather than my bestfriend. 7 years of friendship and counting and Im lucky to have him. So lucky that I had someone there who actually knows and understand me. That I dont have to explain myself anymore everytime I say or do something.. knowing myself I a difficult person to put up with. and my bestfriend manage to pull it up. heheh. thanks bes. : P

Gay Lingo

GAY LINGO 101

Have fun!!

PROPER NOUNS
Ace Sanchez - a top
Aglipay - ugly Pinay ( jowang pokpok na chaka ng mayaman na foreigner )
Ana, Anaconda - ahas, traidor
Anita Linda, Aida - A.I.D.S.
Ate Vangie - gamot pampatulog (Ativan Gang)
Ate Vi - atrebida
Backstreet Boys - cute guys sa likuran mo
Bayombong, Nueva Viscaya - masturbate
Bebang, Mayta - maid
Blusang Itim - mga bakla na gumanda nang maayusan sa parlor
Cathy Santillan, Kate Gomez, Cathy Mora, Cathy Dennis - makati, malibog
Chabelita - chubby
Chanda Romero - tummy (ang laki ng Chanda Romero nung pulis) / an old woman
Chiquito - maliit
Churchill - sosyal
Crayola Khomeni - iyak
Dakota Harrison P! laza - malaki birdie
Debbie Gibson - give
Duty Free - maliit ang nota
Ella Mae (Saeson), Ella Fitzgerald, Ella Luansing - state of feeling horny
Eva Kalaw - evak
Felix Bakat - bakat ang birdie (sa brief or pants)
Girlie Rodis - babae
Givenchy - give, pahingi
Halls - tsupa
Indiana Jones - hindi sumipot
Janjalani, Pocahontas - bakla na palaging late o indyanera
Jennilyn (Mercado) - cheap, chaka
Joana Paras - asawa
Julanis Morisette, Reyna Elena - umuulan
Julie Andrews - mahuli
Kelvinator, Kelvina - babaeng mataba, sinlaki ng refrigirator
Leticia Ramos Shahani - shabu
Lilet - bading na bagets
Lucita Soriano - loss na, sorry pa
Lucrecia Kasilag - baliw
Luz Clarita, Luz Clarita, Luz Valdez - talo, loss ang beauty
Maharlika, Mahalia Jackson - mahal
Manilyn Reynes - malibog
Miss Nigeria - negra
Murriah Carey, Morayta - mura
Nora Daza - magluto
Oprah Winfrey, O.P.M. - oh, promise me, pangako, utang
Phil Collins - Philcoa
Purita Kalaw Ledesma, Purita Kashiwara, Pureta Malaviga - poor, dukha
Rica Paralejo, Nina Ricci - mayaman
Rita Gomez - naiirita
Ruffa - laklak
Siete Pecados - tsismosa
Thunder Cats - gurang
Tom Jones, Tommy Lee Jones - gutom
Uranus - puwet
Washington D.C. - wala
X-Men - mga dating lalaki
Yayo Aguila - dyahe
Zsa Zsa Padilla - o siya, sige!

ADJECTIVES & ADVERBS
48 years - sobrang tagal
antibiotic - antipatika
balaj, valaj - balahura
bella - boba
bigalou - big
biway, chopopo, guash - gwapo
bongga, bonggakea - super to the max
borta - malaki katawan
boyband - lalaking sintaba ng baboy
buya - nakakahiya
chaka, chuckie, shonget, ma-kyonget, chapter, jupang-pang - ugly
cheapangga, chipipay - cheap, ka-cheapan
chipipay - cheap
chopopo - gwapo
conalei - baklush
daki - dako
dites - dito
doonek - doon
effem - halatang bakla
emena gushung - malanding semenarista
fayatollah kumenis - payat
ganda lang - for free
ganders - maganda
intonses - sira, wasak
jongoloids - bobo
jowa, jowabelles, jowabella - karelasyon, boyfriend o girlfriend
jutay, juts - maliit
kabog, loss - talo!
katagalugan - matagal
katol - mukhang katulong
kirara - pangit / maitim
klapeypey-klapeypey - pumalakpak
krang-krang - hungry (same as Tom Jones)
krung-krung - sira ulo, baliw
lulu, tungril, tetetet - lesbian
mahogany, mashumers, ugmas - mabaho
majubis - mataba / gusgusin
matod - magnanakaw
nakakalurky - nakaka-shock, nakaka-takot
neuro - napaisip bigla, mind-boggler
oblation - walang saplot
otoko - lalakeng lalaki
pamin, paminta, pamentos, pamenthol - discreet gay guy
pinkalou - pink
pranella - praning
quality control - maganda ang quality
sangkatuts - marami, isang katutak
shala - sosyal
shogal - matagal
shokot, bokot - takot
shonga, shongaers, planggana - tanga
shonga-shonga - tanga-tanga
shonget, makyonget - ugly
shontis - buntis
sudems - never
tamalis - tamad
urky - nakakaloka
warla - loka-loka, nawawala sa sarili, nababaliw
wasok - contraction ng "wasak pag pasok"
wiz, waz - wala!
wrangler, thunder(s), tanders, majonders – matanda

NOUNS, PRONOUNS AND PREPOSITIONS
adez, andabelz, adesa, anda, ka-andahan, andalucia - pera
akesh, akembang - ako
badet, dinga, dingalou - bading
berru - beer
borlog - tulog, power nap
bottomesa, bottones - a bottom
bufra - boyfriend
carrou, carosa - car
cheese - chismis
chimi, chimini, chimi-aa, chimini-aa - maid
constru - construction worker
daot - ahas, traitor
ditey, ditich, ditraks - dito
feelanga - crush
fiampey - singit, birdie, flower
garapata - vaklush na punggok na majubis
gardini - security guard
oishi - shabu
gulay, pechay, bilatch, tahong - babae
hada - oral gay sex
hammer - pakonyo effect sa mga prosti or callboy, "pokpok"
havana - mahabang mukha
hipon - maganda ang katawan pero panget
itich, itechlavu - ito
itich-me-how - birdie
jipamy - jeep
jowa, jowawis - lover, boy/girlfriend
jubelita - vaklita, batang bading
kat-kat - sosyal na tawag sa katulong
katol, chimay - katulong
kyota - bata
kyotatalet - sanggol
likil, mentos, future - lalaki
merlat, melat, bilat, mujer - babae
nota, notes - penis
pa-uring - a bottom
performance artist - mahilig mag-inarte
potato queen - chink for chinks
red alert - menstruation
rice queen - chink folks who go for white guys (?)
colbam, sholbam - callboy
shulupi - pulubi
shumod, shumodity - tams
suba, bugarou - cigarette
success story - babae/lalaki na mukhang katulong na may lover na foreigner na masalapi
katuray - baklang mukhang katulong na mataray
tayelz - tayo
variables - barya, coins
wigwam - wig

No Smoking

This is ironic. This is my fifth attempt to eliminate nicotine from my system since I officially began smoking 4 years ago. My last attempt was last December 08, I made it for 7 days. And now today. I just happen to realize that its not benifiting me anymore. No buds to smoke with. Nothing to enjoy anymore. So why the hell im still clinging on to this stupid stick. I could definitely find a better worth for my money. Smokers are losers. If there should be one good reason for me to stop is that is for myself. Im gonna change my life and ill start it with this. Lets see how strong a person I am, if i can resist temptation. Im quiting thats it. Im done. Goodbye marlboro lights.

Tamang Emo lang.

Esem

Patingin-tingin, di naman makabili
Patingin-tingin, di makapanood ng sine
Walang ibang pera, kundi pamasahe
Nakayanan ko lang, pambili ng dalalwang yosi

Pamoy-amoy, di naman makakain
Busog na sa tubig
Gutom nailipas din
Patuloy ang laboy
Walang iisipin
Kailangang magsaya, kailangang magpahangin

Nakakainip ang ganitong buhay
Nakakainis ang ganitong buhay
Nakakainip ang ganitong buhay
Nakakainis ang ganitong buhay
(repeat)

Gumagabi na
Ako'y uuwi na
Tapos na ang saya
Balik sa problema
At bukas ng umaga
Uulitin ko pa ba ang kahibangang ito
Sa tingin ko hindi na

Nakakainip ang ganitong buhay
Nakakainis ang ganitong buhay
Nakakainip ang ganitong buhay
Nakakainis ang ganitong buhay

Nakakabaliw ang ganitong buhay
Di nakakaaliw ang ganitong buhay
Nakakabaliw ang ganitong buhay
Di nakakaaliw ang ganitong buhay

No... no no no


* * *

Im in between a crossroad at this point of my life. I got so much big decision to make that will deffinitely change how I live my life in the future. I know what's the right path to take. Yet Its not gonna be really easy. When did I put myself in this such mess? One mistake can cause me my Job, my college diploma, my future. I could lose everything I have from this point and start back to zero. How did I became this person? Could I be any stronger to face everything? To stand up against myself and beat the odds? Ive been relying on luck all this time. With fate not taking its toll on me yet. And this next two weeks would be the outcome of my decisions. I would be recieving my verdict for all the actions I made in the past. Im not scared. I can take all the blows life will give me. I know it'l make me stronger and learn from all the mistakes I committed, thou I know its a lot. But I dont live in regrets. I have choosen it to be this way so be it. Bring it on!