The aftermath of my 23rd birthday. wow. im officially 23 yrs old. not a kid anymore, but a young adult. I was a nice birthday. I have chosen to celebrate it on a different way, not by drinking or throwing off a fiest but for simply enjoying my day and appreciating what i got in life. I called off from work, but instead i went to school and did my projects with my friend. It was an awesome day. THe afternoon was sunny and a little windy. It was almost perfect. I remember eating snacks while watching the crowd of students around the campus. It was fun, we ended our day at a campus with my short ride offered my friend, they dropped me at cubao in where I took a jeepney ride to riverbanks to pick up my 2 sisters doing grocery. I spent a little time alone smoking at the back of the mall, where the park was located, bought some food and enjoyed the beautiful view. It was very nice and out of nowhere. Feeling very lonely and sad I forwarded this message to all my friends and people who knew me personally including my TL (truelove).. at my suprise he was the one who first replied.
me: :)
im 23 2day nd i still feel incomplete.
tl: why?
me: cuz i cant have you. all dis time i nvr felt like i ever moved on.
tl: i always feel guilty everytime u say that.
me: it was nver ur fault, alam q nman n gnito eversince. cguro sobra lng qng umaasa n s0meday thngs could still change between us.
so there it was. no matter what. this short conversation has made my entire day. I rarely get any decent replies from him for a long time now. We rarely talk. mostly hi and hello's and will be answered by 'ok's" Its nice to think that i still have that special someone in my life. That love do still exist inside me. Im not lonely. I have a lot of people who care for me. Some of them might not care more than the way that i wanted them to, but still knowing that i still have this tiny little spot in his heart made my birthday almost perfect.
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