No Smoking

This is ironic. This is my fifth attempt to eliminate nicotine from my system since I officially began smoking 4 years ago. My last attempt was last December 08, I made it for 7 days. And now today. I just happen to realize that its not benifiting me anymore. No buds to smoke with. Nothing to enjoy anymore. So why the hell im still clinging on to this stupid stick. I could definitely find a better worth for my money. Smokers are losers. If there should be one good reason for me to stop is that is for myself. Im gonna change my life and ill start it with this. Lets see how strong a person I am, if i can resist temptation. Im quiting thats it. Im done. Goodbye marlboro lights.

The Bucket List.

Im fully loaded for December. I was browsing from one blog after another this afternoon when i ran into a post from yanah (a fellow blogger) about her bucket list. Well a bucket list as explained by her: is a list of things you would like to get done or experience just before you die. This gave me an idea to do my own list of things i needed to achieve this month. Its gonna be a great motivator and reminder for the things needed to be done. I decided to post my own bucket list for December. Effective on the 1st which will be tomorrow. I need to atleast accoplish 75% percent of whats written in this list. Lets see whats gonna happen and find out how far will my ambition/determination take me.

1. Schedule my appointment with my Orthodontics for my braces. I never enjoyed meeting my dentist but there are things in life that we just need to suck.

2. Spoil urself with that Fossil watch that Ive been eyeing at since Sept. this is it. its now or never.

3. Convince my bestfriend for a nightout in Malate. Ive never been there. I need to experience it.

4. A complete full attendance this month at work. (this one seems to be the most difficult since its holiday, well see.)

5. Organize a Christmas party for my highschool classmate and might attend our allumni homecoming this Dec 30.

6. See 3rd-great-love this December. Please. I need to see him again. I miss him so bad. Ill give anything just for another conversation.

7. Experience simbang gabi this year.

8. Recover my Nokia 5310 phone being held hostage at a Nokia repair center in Alimall. ( hang in there baby. I gonna get you. promised.)

9. Complete a 10 non smoking day for the whole month in preparation for my quiting process from marlboro next year!

Loser.

I promised myself that ill quit smoking. That was last week when I told myself I had it with this stupid cigarette. I was able to stay away from taking marlboro for 7 straight days, then decided to try just 1 stick last Saturday. For the sake of curiousty of what would it feel like smoking after not having it for a week. It taste differently. On Sunday I had 3 sticks with my bestfried ( I wouldnt let myself live 45mins longer than him). Yesterday I had 2. Hey I was stress out from work and school I needed it. Really. And today, I have 3. During my 2 breaks at work and 1 after work. Am I still quiting? Why...

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fuck! fuck! E! visited my my blog and read this cheap ugly gramatically incorrect post! I am so embarass!! I never thought in a million years that he'd actually click on my blog and even drop a comment!!! Thank you E! thank you! thank you!