Christmas Day

MERRY CHRISTMAS TO EVERYONE!!!

I'm at work today taking calls. But I dont care. Hey its Christmas! there are no excuses not to be happy today. Thou we got all kinds of crisis all over the place, we are still lucky to be celebrating this wonderful day with the people we love and cared for. I dont give a damn if im broke tomorrow. I got a text message from my special someone. A cute unexpected casual date last night, Christmas eve. Im sleep deprived, but i dont feel anything at all. Im totally full of energy and inspirations which will not go away today. Im glad, happy, inspired, inlove. I want to jump and scream out in joy. Merry Christmas!!

Christmas Dizz..

This is what I bought for myself this Christmas. : ) My first Ipod!

Ok. We only got 3 nights left before christmas. I may have gotten myself an Ipod but still im not excited. The expenses. Food. The agony of having to go to work on Christmas day. There is just too much. I went out with my bestfriend again last night. We first attended a Misa de Gallo at 8pm ( got that part filled on my bucket list ) We eat dinner somewhere on a grill in Riverbanks. It was nice. And Went to a bar for a couple of rounds of beer. We werent having fun so we decided to change bars when midnight and went to Borafire were we caught the last set of performance from the band playing. There were this cutie im eyeing at behind our table. ( apparently the guy was straight so i told myself to forget it.) We drank a couple of beers. smoke. more beers, that i became so drunk It felt like im practically half asleep while heading home. But it was great. Got drunk again. Its what I needed. The promising taste of beer was great. Hoping I could flush the loneliness out of my system.

Merry Christmas to everyone! Enjoy the season.

A Night in December.

I went out with my bestfriend last night to treat him for his birthday tomorrow. He skipped work just to drink with me. (a very good friend indeed). We have drank on a cozy bar called Bonfire Grill somewhere along Riverbanks which was really nice avoiding the crowd of Tiange shoppers nearby. The photo above was the view from our table. We were at the 2nd floor. Hell it was great! The wind was cold, the ambiance was relaxing, good music nice band. We even witnessed a 5mins fireworks display from a nearby mall. The booze was great. I didnt drank too much thou. 3 bottles of redhorse and 2 sanmig light strong ice. I was planning shop for my exchange gift the next day (which was today) I got a lot of stories to tell about this night. I just couldnt write them down since im in a hurry to leave. Another thing happened when i got back home semi-drunk and found Him log in. He was waiting for me. we chatted, shared jokes, laugh, exchanged smileys and I get to to see him on his webcam still in bed. I began to tease Him and then It happened, between 12:30-1:30am pass midnght (no further details will be given) , It was fantastic. I dont know how, It was like almost making love. It was very sweet and romantic. my first.

And now I cant fall inlove. Im never good at keeping long distance relationships. Neither he. But im starting to develop this uneasy feeling of loneliness, needing comfort. warmth, romance (duh) I want to fall inlove again and be loved. But what's holding me back.? fear.