the summer heat!!

bring it on!

crushed!

another heartbreak. A heart crushing experience. As if I'm a rookie when it comes to heart failure. Ive been dumped twice already before this one. But this 3rd one seems different. It wasn't like the other first two. This time I thought I have a chance, or I knew I have. I wholeheartedly believe that it was my fucking destiny turns out to be a big not. I almost thought we had it. Well almost. Because it didn't turned out to be what I have planned. Remember how it feels whenever your together. All those senseless conversation that means a lot to you. How you smiled stupidly for all those romantic thoughts that didn't actually exist. How it made you special every time he mentions your name, send a text message, skype or just smiles when he passes by. those lss. His scent. Then all of a sudden. Boom. Everything was shattered just like that. And you lying on the floor don't know how to start picking up the pieces that's what left of you. Love can make you do stupid things. That's a fact. It can make you vulnerable. It can shake you to the core. It can turn your world upside down, literally. It can drain you. It can turn you emo. It can consume you and right before you know it, your an addict. You may realize that it may be bad for you but still you insist. Believing that this is a part of happiness that youve been longing all along. Then your heart starts to break. Disappointments. You'll find yourself confuse. It can make you look, feel and act dumb. You'll lose all the logic and commonsense. Everything wont seem to matter until you realize that you have nothing in the end. And you'll find yourself asking; that's what I get for loving? It was a disaster, so worst that it might have left a crater in your heart. oh well. heal again. It could have been worst. Since for every chapter there's always an ending. I may not have won his heart, but I'm definitely more wiser now. more careful. I may not that be happy but I will. Someday.

I'm now 24yrs old. I'm so growing old and its happening too fast. I was like 21 or 22 when I first started this blog 2 years ago. And here I am now. I used to be on friendster but now im doing facebook. (which is way lot cooler, except from some few people on it.) And now that I'm half way thru my 20's what do I expect for myself now? What kind of career should I be in now after spending almost 3 years on graveyard shift. Will it lead me closer to my own grave? heheh. ^_^
seriously, I'm happy to meet some few people along the way. The friends that I have, they have stayed in my life for quite a long time. And I'm planning to keep them there for a while. It's so comforting to know that there would always be somebody there for me whenever I needed someone to listen. A shoulder for every heartbreak. A smile for every sad moments. I may not earned that much money that what I have expected. But boy, I sure have picked up some nice, genuine people along the way. Something that I will always kept as a treasure.

Wat's Up?

so its been almost four months since I last updated my blog. Ive been busy spending more time facebooking. anyway, lets update and tell you all the recent changes. ^_^


I was puffing ultra lights like 5 months ago then finally tried the black one. I was a bit hesitant at first since I don't enjoy the feeling of mint carving a path inside my lungs. Its just too cold. Then after a few tries I began to love it. So I'm now Marlboro Black. I don't really remember how it happened I just found myself one day buying a pack at 7/11. A lot of things happened by the way while I was doing black. I met a lot of people who eventually became my friends. We went out partied, got drunk. My best friend hated me because he didn't like menthol. We kinda like semi hate each other. We love each other but I think we stopped caring. I rarely talk to him these last few days. There were just too many changes happening and suddenly I think at some point in our lives we weren't able to catch up with each other. We'll figure it out someday and patch it up.