No Smoking

This is ironic. This is my fifth attempt to eliminate nicotine from my system since I officially began smoking 4 years ago. My last attempt was last December 08, I made it for 7 days. And now today. I just happen to realize that its not benifiting me anymore. No buds to smoke with. Nothing to enjoy anymore. So why the hell im still clinging on to this stupid stick. I could definitely find a better worth for my money. Smokers are losers. If there should be one good reason for me to stop is that is for myself. Im gonna change my life and ill start it with this. Lets see how strong a person I am, if i can resist temptation. Im quiting thats it. Im done. Goodbye marlboro lights.

Tamang Emo lang.

Esem

Patingin-tingin, di naman makabili
Patingin-tingin, di makapanood ng sine
Walang ibang pera, kundi pamasahe
Nakayanan ko lang, pambili ng dalalwang yosi

Pamoy-amoy, di naman makakain
Busog na sa tubig
Gutom nailipas din
Patuloy ang laboy
Walang iisipin
Kailangang magsaya, kailangang magpahangin

Nakakainip ang ganitong buhay
Nakakainis ang ganitong buhay
Nakakainip ang ganitong buhay
Nakakainis ang ganitong buhay
(repeat)

Gumagabi na
Ako'y uuwi na
Tapos na ang saya
Balik sa problema
At bukas ng umaga
Uulitin ko pa ba ang kahibangang ito
Sa tingin ko hindi na

Nakakainip ang ganitong buhay
Nakakainis ang ganitong buhay
Nakakainip ang ganitong buhay
Nakakainis ang ganitong buhay

Nakakabaliw ang ganitong buhay
Di nakakaaliw ang ganitong buhay
Nakakabaliw ang ganitong buhay
Di nakakaaliw ang ganitong buhay

No... no no no


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Im in between a crossroad at this point of my life. I got so much big decision to make that will deffinitely change how I live my life in the future. I know what's the right path to take. Yet Its not gonna be really easy. When did I put myself in this such mess? One mistake can cause me my Job, my college diploma, my future. I could lose everything I have from this point and start back to zero. How did I became this person? Could I be any stronger to face everything? To stand up against myself and beat the odds? Ive been relying on luck all this time. With fate not taking its toll on me yet. And this next two weeks would be the outcome of my decisions. I would be recieving my verdict for all the actions I made in the past. Im not scared. I can take all the blows life will give me. I know it'l make me stronger and learn from all the mistakes I committed, thou I know its a lot. But I dont live in regrets. I have choosen it to be this way so be it. Bring it on!

My Pretty Ladies..

Im extra flexible.

Bang me on the wall..

I can blow your brains out..

the girlfriend you never have..

with a body to die for.

and im just outside your door..

What Did They Do To YOU???!!!

WHAT HAPPENED!!??

I was shock and horrified when I have accidentally stumbled into this Cassie's recent photos posted in yahoo.. my all time female crush now look like this.? What happened its been like a year that I didnt heard anything from her. I was not expecting to see her again with a look like this. She wasnt suppose to be the kind of girl who's gonna go with this outfit. Its so.. so freaky. Is she doing drugs? Did she got dumped by an asshole? what did she exactly do to herself to look like this. Cassie?

Honey, I honestly dont find it cool, it freak the hell out of me.

She was my ideal girlfriend back when I was in college. Id remember playing her videos on youtube and watch her dance. She was just to sexy and attractive back then that I told my seatmate id rape her when she visits the country.

baby this couldnt be you.. what did they too you??! FUCK!!!

If I were straight she would the first girl i'd bang.

sweet Cassie back in 2006 when her debut single "Me and U" was released. Look how cute she was. goodbye.

The Jerk

Dont we just love it to see really annoying people getting booted out in Survivor. I was so happy last night when the unexpected happened at tribal council. They voted out Tyson (the jerk) leaving Coach flabbergasted. hahaha!! Its like kicking them on the face when theyre just so over confident. Look at that. I wanna watch it all over and over again, seeing the suprise when Jeff read his name one after another. I know it was a game. But it doesnt include insulting other people. Clearly Sierra is a better person than you. YOU Asshole!!! Serves you right. I really wanted Sierra to win. She has definitely proven a lot. Hang in there.. Hope Coach made his next dumb move and get kicked out of the game too. Hope your next pyscho!!

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the whole cast of Survivor Tocantins

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Sierra Reed
Hot hot hot. just like Jenna from Survivor Amazon.
Aint she so pretty. Go Sierra!! Win Survivor!

When will I ever learn?

Thats What You Get
Paramore


No sir, well I don't wanna be the blame, not anymore.
It's your turn, to take a seat we're settling the final score.
And why do we like to hurt, so much?

I can't decide
You have made it harder just to go on
And why?
All the possibilities...
Well I was wrong

That's what you get when you let your heart win. Whoa!
That's what you get when you let your heart win. Whoa...
I drowned out all my sense with the sound of its beating.
And that's what you get when you let your heart win. Whoa.

I wonder, how am I supposed to feel when you're not here.
'Cause I burned every bridge I ever built when you were here.
I still try... holding onto silly things, I never learn.
Oh why? All the possibilities. I'm sure you've heard.

That's what you get when you let your heart win. Whoa!
That's what you get when you let your heart win. Whoa..
I drowned out all my sense with the sound of its beating.
And that's what you get when you let your heart win. Whoa.

Pain, make your way to me. (to me)
And I'll always be just so inviting.
If I ever start to think straight,
This heart will start a riot in me,
Let's start... Start, hey!

Why do we like to hurt so much?
Oh why do we like to hurt so much?

That's what you get when you let your heart win!
Whoa.

That's what you get when you let your heart win, whoa.
That's what you get when you let your heart win, whoa.

I can't trust myself with anything but this,
And that's what you get when you let your heart win, whoa.

this is what i get..

I have a new found hobby. Whenever I wanted to feel miserable all I do is open my love's friendster profile. Id peek at his photos album, to see his new pictures. staring at his cute irristible smile, the smile that melted me for years. Those eyes .. Its an overwhelming misery. Specially that he got somebody else now. Seeing them together with his new lover just break me into pieces. ANd to be honest I dont know where to start picking them up. I have told no one about this. But it hurts to see him so happy with someone else but me. Its hurts to realize how big a loser i was. It painful to know that after a year of being apart he's still the person that could hurt me the most. ohh... Life sucks when your alone. When you dont have anyone to share feelings with. Im an emotionally stupid guy. I need someone beside to watch over me. Well, anyway that was just a thought. I got carried away too much with my feelings. Everyone lose something very special once in thier lives. On my case I think its him. So what I gotta do is move on. Get get a life.

guess who i am... : P

You are The Devil

Materiality. Material Force. Material temptation; sometimes obsession

The Devil is often a great card for business success; hard work and ambition.

Perhaps the most misunderstood of all the major arcana, the Devil is not really "Satan" at all, but Pan the half-goat nature god and/or Dionysius. These are gods of pleasure and abandon, of wild behavior and unbridled desires. This is a card about ambitions; it is also synonymous with temptation and addiction. On the flip side, however, the card can be a warning to someone who is too restrained, someone who never allows themselves to get passionate or messy or wild - or ambitious. This, too, is a form of enslavement. As a person, the Devil can stand for a man of money or erotic power, aggressive, controlling, or just persuasive. This is not to say a bad man, but certainly a powerful man who is hard to resist. The important thing is to remember that any chain is freely worn. In most cases, you are enslaved only because you allow it.

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