Season 4

 

It's been almost 3 years since I last posted in this blog. I have been getting issues getting the password right. I already even created an alternate one in case I wouldn't be able to do so. I'm so relieve that I was still able to recover it.

I'm a bum right now. No work. No savings. No money. So I'm completely starting off from scratch. ZERO. It's hard to find a new job specially that I wanna breakaway from the BPO industry but cant let go of the salary I'm getting before. I was to get a regular job I will have to live with getting paid less than what I have been used to. Smaller salary means limited luxury. No more expensive shoppings. tours, dates, nightouts etc..

So now I'm into this ordeal.I used to tell myself to suck it and live with it whenever I feel weak and exhausted at work before, I didn't really realize that I'd let it go just like that and suddenly go on AWOL. Regrets? maybe but not because I left work. I should have saved money and planned it all out specially at this point that my sister will be married in a few days. Family expenses are sky rocketing. So there's my thoughts. But what is done is done. Surely there's no turning back. So what is left to do is just move on. I know I will.

the summer heat!!

bring it on!

crushed!

another heartbreak. A heart crushing experience. As if I'm a rookie when it comes to heart failure. Ive been dumped twice already before this one. But this 3rd one seems different. It wasn't like the other first two. This time I thought I have a chance, or I knew I have. I wholeheartedly believe that it was my fucking destiny turns out to be a big not. I almost thought we had it. Well almost. Because it didn't turned out to be what I have planned. Remember how it feels whenever your together. All those senseless conversation that means a lot to you. How you smiled stupidly for all those romantic thoughts that didn't actually exist. How it made you special every time he mentions your name, send a text message, skype or just smiles when he passes by. those lss. His scent. Then all of a sudden. Boom. Everything was shattered just like that. And you lying on the floor don't know how to start picking up the pieces that's what left of you. Love can make you do stupid things. That's a fact. It can make you vulnerable. It can shake you to the core. It can turn your world upside down, literally. It can drain you. It can turn you emo. It can consume you and right before you know it, your an addict. You may realize that it may be bad for you but still you insist. Believing that this is a part of happiness that youve been longing all along. Then your heart starts to break. Disappointments. You'll find yourself confuse. It can make you look, feel and act dumb. You'll lose all the logic and commonsense. Everything wont seem to matter until you realize that you have nothing in the end. And you'll find yourself asking; that's what I get for loving? It was a disaster, so worst that it might have left a crater in your heart. oh well. heal again. It could have been worst. Since for every chapter there's always an ending. I may not have won his heart, but I'm definitely more wiser now. more careful. I may not that be happy but I will. Someday.

I'm now 24yrs old. I'm so growing old and its happening too fast. I was like 21 or 22 when I first started this blog 2 years ago. And here I am now. I used to be on friendster but now im doing facebook. (which is way lot cooler, except from some few people on it.) And now that I'm half way thru my 20's what do I expect for myself now? What kind of career should I be in now after spending almost 3 years on graveyard shift. Will it lead me closer to my own grave? heheh. ^_^
seriously, I'm happy to meet some few people along the way. The friends that I have, they have stayed in my life for quite a long time. And I'm planning to keep them there for a while. It's so comforting to know that there would always be somebody there for me whenever I needed someone to listen. A shoulder for every heartbreak. A smile for every sad moments. I may not earned that much money that what I have expected. But boy, I sure have picked up some nice, genuine people along the way. Something that I will always kept as a treasure.

Wat's Up?

so its been almost four months since I last updated my blog. Ive been busy spending more time facebooking. anyway, lets update and tell you all the recent changes. ^_^


I was puffing ultra lights like 5 months ago then finally tried the black one. I was a bit hesitant at first since I don't enjoy the feeling of mint carving a path inside my lungs. Its just too cold. Then after a few tries I began to love it. So I'm now Marlboro Black. I don't really remember how it happened I just found myself one day buying a pack at 7/11. A lot of things happened by the way while I was doing black. I met a lot of people who eventually became my friends. We went out partied, got drunk. My best friend hated me because he didn't like menthol. We kinda like semi hate each other. We love each other but I think we stopped caring. I rarely talk to him these last few days. There were just too many changes happening and suddenly I think at some point in our lives we weren't able to catch up with each other. We'll figure it out someday and patch it up.

Lady Gaga's Bad Romance Video

Its so amazing, how they have come up with this concept. This is it for Lady Gaga! Its her element. I so love her. : )

Does God Exist?

A University professor at a well known institution of higher learning challenged his students with this question. "Did God create everything that exists?"

A student bravely replied, "Yes he did!"

"God created everything?" The professor asked.

"Yes sir, he certainly did," the student replied.

The professor answered, "If God created everything; then God created evil. And, since evil exists, and according to the principle that our works define who we are, then we can assume God is evil."

The student became quiet and did not answer the professor's hypothetical definition. The professor, quite pleased with himself, boasted to the students that he had proven once more that the Christian faith was a myth.

Another student raised his hand and said, "May I ask you a question, professor?"

"Of course", replied the professor.

The student stood up and asked, "Professor, does cold exist?"

"What kind of question is this? Of course it exists. Have you never been cold?"

The other students snickered at the young man's question.

The young man replied, "In fact sir, cold does not exist. According to the laws of physics, what we consider cold is in reality the absence of heat. Every body or object is susceptible to study when it has or transmits energy, and heat is what makes a body or matter have or transmit energy. Absolute zero (-460 F) is the total absence of heat; and all matter becomes inert and incapable of reaction at that temperature. Cold does not exist. We have created this word to describe how we feel if we have no heat."

The student continued, "Professor, does darkness exist?"

The professor responded, "Of course it does."

The student replied, "Once again you are wrong sir, darkness does not exist either. Darkness is in reality the absence of light. Light we can study, but not darkness. In fact, we can use Newton's prism to break white light into many colors and study the various wavelengths of each color.

You cannot measure darkness. A simple ray of light can break into a world of darkness and illuminate it. How can you know how dark a certain space is? You measure the amount of light present. Isn't this correct? Darkness is a term used by man to describe what happens when there is no light present."

Finally the young man asked the professor, "Sir, does evil exist?"

Now uncertain, the professor responded, "Of course, as I have already said. We see it everyday. It is in the daily examples of man's Inhumanity to man. It is in the multitude of crime and violence everywhere in the world. These manifestations are nothing else but evil.

To this the student replied, "Evil does not exist, sir, or at least it does not exist unto itself. Evil is simply the absence of God. It is just like darkness and cold, a word that man has created to describe the absence of God. God did not create evil. Evil is the result of what happens when man does not have God's love present in his heart. It's like the cold that comes when there is no heat, or the darkness that comes when there is no light."

The professor sat down.

The young man's name - Albert Einstein ₇

Ondoy

In memory of super typhoon Ondoy who devastated our city last September 26 09. The traumatic experience that I have encountered and witnessed during the calamity has drained all the will inside me to write about it. I hope that I could just forget it and may my friends, neighbors (and the whole Philippines affected with the typhoon) easily get back with their lives again.

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New Watch

I purchased this Fossil watch last night from eBay. Got it really cheap, and It looks good on me. I finally learned how to bid and do transactions on eBay. I'm glad to win this time. I was very depressed last Monday after loosing from an auction for the first fossil watch Ive been following for over a week. Damn that I didn't get to have that item but now that I have this , I feel a lot better now. This is actually the first watch that I wore in the last 5 years. wow finally. I have something going on back in college preventing me to own a watch. I like it. My parents should never know any of this. If they found out that Ive been buying stuff from the internet without consulting them, they'd surely freak out.

I still don't know what's going on with my life thou. I'm still single, frustrated, lonely, tired, sleep deprived person that I am 2 years ago. Whats wrong with me? Ive seen and dated a lot of people in the last year and still nobody has ever ended up with me. (actually I don't mind. I never liked anyone of them anyway.) I haven't met him yet. What's taking you so long? : )

“Dinig Sana Kita” (“If I Knew What You Said”)

this seems to be a promising movie for a love story. its been a while since I watched something romantic and feel like i wanted to fall inlove again. Ive been feeling a bit lonely this past few days. how long will i stay single?

The Blue Pack

My marlboro lights now comes with a new blue pack. I can't exactly tell if it has any differences in regards with the taste with the regular lights but the new packaging looks good thou. So far I already inhaled 2 packs in just 3 days. Working in Eastwood, Im very much exposed to seeing people smoking, making it very much difficult to quit.

I only have until tomorrow to decide if I want to consider going back to my previous job. I admit, I do miss my last job, I worked for Sprint for over 2 years. The account wasnt easy but it was challenging and I enjoy playing the role of a customer service rep., in which I get to help a lot of people, it gives me a sense of fulfilment knowing that I still have a purpose in this world.

My new company is the exact opposite. Size, benifits, environment, task, management, staff, everything seems different from what I am accustomed. I find it really wierd. Work is too easy that I dont feel any fulfilment at all after completing it. Am I whining again? looking for things that's missing, I even doubt it if there's a perfect company who even exist specially in this country. let's face it, we can't have them all.. maybe I should just stop complaining and finish my contract then go back on a later date or should I back off now and just went missing after the first payday..

“It is in your moments of decision that your destiny is shaped.”
~ Anthony Robbins

special thanks to pro. heckler for providing the qoute.

September begins.

I bought my first Lacoste polo shirt today on ebay and picked the item up on a condo in makati this morning. Im loving ebay! so far all 3 transactions that i made within this year were all sucessful. I remember winning bids last january for that 2009 starbucks planner. Im very happy with the shirt I bought. I got one in black. Ive been dying to have this Lacoste polo's in the last 2 years, Ive seen most of my crushes wearing these and its so sexy. I know it will also look good on me. I just knew it. (it gotta be, this is one of the most expensive shirt that I ever bought in my entire life.) I cant fucking wait to show it off to my friends. :)

Ever wonder why I afforded a Lacoste shirt when I just started my new job last week and I havent even been paid yet? I finally recieved my final pay from my previous company. I went there yesterday and visited the accounting office and ask if I have my check out already. It was. I cashed it immediately. I went to a mall planning to get myself some new shoes but I didnt find one that I actually like. I dont know If I still want that fossil watch now that I have my money. I so wanted to own an Ipod Touch but with itunes on my pc acting crazy it might not be a good idea to get one until its fix. or maybe I should invest my money on a business or put it away on a bank.. I have a lot of things to think about and to think that that was all of it, I was wrong. ten minutes after I got home I went to bed to take a nap and then I got a text message coming from my former sup back in TP. My old company wants me back. Its so ironic when I already said my goodbye's and farewell on my recent visit. They were offering me to come back to work with the same account. Apparently they might have realized that I was a huge lost to the company after I left. I thought he was joking at first but he was not. I can go back to my old job and start all over again. that means leaving my current company which I enjoy working, theyre asking me to choose and leave my current job after establishing friendship and bond with the people I work with. Just after I found friends that I know that I will never see anywhere. The temptation here is the salary offer. It will be an advantage for me if I go back ill be earning more but it means leaving them behind. Theyre wonderful. I never met anyone like them before who actually appreciated and liked me. I was given until saturday to decide. I have to think about it.